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Rejected
Girl Genius, Oggie, Jenka, Studio Foglio, Jagermonster
geekhyena
Both graduate schools I applied to rejected me.  I haven't gotten so much as a callback from any internship or summer job I applied for.  My own parents view me as a failure, especially compared to my little sister, who now enjoys the favorite child position I enjoyed before I decided to do what I wanted to do with life, instead of what my parents dictated (coming out as bi was also a factor in my black sheep status).  

Trying to figure out what to do with my life.  Wondering if I have a future.  I specialized so much in nutrition because I was assured by professors/advisers that I could find a spot.  I feel betrayed.  I feel depressed.  I feel like not doing anything but sitting and reading because what's the point?  I tried my hardest, worked myself into several stress-related ailments, wrecked my body....and for what?  Why bother?  Why try if all I'm going to do is fail?

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*hugs* *hugs* *hugs* It gets better. *hugs*

Sorry to hear it. Things is tough all over. Too bad we both can't be professional Jägermonsters.

Buggrit. It could be worse. I still have no idea what I want to do when I grow up.

I just want to be a researcher. And not even super high up....just...the Glassvitch to someone's Dr. Beetle, if you know what I mean? A few minions, but not high enough I have to politick. My mom wants me to go into sales, since I'm good at being persuasive, but the problem is that I can't sell something I don't honestly believe is awesome. I tried telemarketing for my local university, and it made me sick. I hated myself for it, and I can't blatantly lie to people about how awesome a product is....if I'm selling it, I need to think it's amazing. The majority of pet food companies.....*shudders* I would hate myself for shilling for Purina/Friskies/Iams etc. Working in research to improve products? Yes. Selling their crappy output when I wouldn't feed it to anything with a stomach? No. (And if you ever want to know what good brands are, let me know - there are some awesome ones out there).

I know what I want to do, I just can't seem to get there, and my Mom (who didn't have her shit together until age 25/26), expects me to have mine together at 21. The fact that I have an overachieving little sister who makes me and my brother look like slackers by comparison doesn't help, either.

I would happily be the well-compensated minion of a suitable spark. Trouble is, they are few and far between.

No kidding.....I just want a Dr. Glassvitch-level position eventually...but I can't even get basic minion jobs.

Believe me, I know how you feel.

*if you don't mind, offers hugs*

I read Wodehouse when I feel like this. It's so delightfully silly.



Edited at 2012-05-04 05:46 pm (UTC)

P.G. Wodehouse, wrote darling fluffy comedy; the most famous works are his Jeeves and Wooster books, but I really like Cocktail Time the best, Galahad is... is... so insouciant, that's the word!

Perfect escapism.

Howdy - you only know me from fan_constructs (I guess?), and I hate to spew cliches, but... I hear ya. I got a BA over 20 years ago in film/TV production to, you know, make movies and TV shows, and not only did Hollywood shut its doors HARD, it changed the locks every now and then, just to make sure. I worked at a video store, in a comic book store, as admin assistants, door-to-door perfume sales {{shudder}}, as whatever I could find. Etc etc. Where did I end up? Boring story, but software. wtf, right? It took a long time, but "it" got better. You'll find your way!

Keep writing; keep huntink!

You still out there? LJ says you had a birthday Oct 13... many happy returns of the day...

Still out there! Just mostly on Tumblr (except for seananmcguire and ursulav 's entries). Grad school is doing well, if keeping me super busy. ^_^ How are you?

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